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海螺

Produced & Copyright on May 2009
Melody by Jon And Me
Lyrics by Hui Jia
Arrangement by Me, Gregory, Chien Wen and Winston
Performers: Me(Keyboard & Vocal), Chien Wen(Strings), Gregory(Guitar), Winston(Drum)

Its Her

Produced & Copyright on May 2009
Melody by Me
Lyrics by Me
Arrangement by Me, Winston
Performers: Me(Guitar & Vocal), Priscilla Tay(Strings), Winston(Drum)

全世界停在这一秒

Produced & Copyright on May 2009
Melody by Me
Lyrics by Me
Arrangement by Me, Priscilla yeoh, Kent, Shirlene
Performers: Me(Guitar & Vocal), Kent(Bass), Priscilla Yeoh & Cheryl(Backup Vocal), Shirlene(Drum)

山歌

Produced & Copyright on November 2008
Melody by Jia Yi
Lyrics by Avier
Arrangement by Jia Yi, Ben, Tze Chow, Ken
Performers: Me(Keyboard), Chien Wen(Vocal), Ben(Bass), Tze Chow(Drum), Ken(Guitar), Cheryl & Prislla(Harmonize & Bongo)

我们的故事

Produced & Copyright on November 2008
Melody by Me & Chien Wen
Lyrics by Chien Wen & ShinRu
Arrangement by Me, ChienWen, Gregory, Tze Chow, Shinru
Performers: Me(Guitar & Vocal), Gregory(guitar), Chien Wen(Keyboard), ShinRu(Keyboard), Xueting(Vocal), Tze Chow(Drums)

世界环游

Produced & Copyright on November 2008
Melody by Chien Wen
Lyrics by Avier
Arrangement by Chien Wen, Tze Chow, Maxwell
Performers: Me(Vocal), Steve(Harmonize), Maxwell(Guitar), Tze Chow(Bongo)

能不能

Produced & Copyright on November 2008
Melody by Me
Lyrics by Hui Jia
Arrangement by Me, Ben, Jia Le, Gregory
Performers: Me(Keyboard & Vocal), Chien Wen(Harmonize), Ben(Bass), Violet(Drum), Gregory(Guitar), Jia Le(Violin)

随声听

Produced & Copyright on October 2008
Melody by Me
Lyrics by Me
Arrangement by Me, Ben, MeiJing, Tze Chow
Performers: Me(Vocal & Keyboard), Ben(Bass), Tze Chow(Drums), Mei Jing(Flute)

深白色

Produced & Copyright on October 2008
Melody by Me
Lyrics by Me
Arrangement by Me, Ben, Tze Chow
Performers: Me(Vocal & Keyboard), Ben(Bass), Tze Chow(Drums), Ken(Guitar)

一直期待

Produced & Copyright on September 2008
Melody by Me
Lyrics by Wendy Tan
Arrangement by Me, Ben, Winston
Performers: Me(Vocal & Keyboard), Ben(Bass), Winston(Drums)

时间 Jikan

Produced & Copyright on September 2008
Melody by Jia Yi
Lyrics by Me and Jia Yi
Arrangement by Jia Yi
Performers: Me(Vocal), Jia Yi(Keyboard)

因为你存在

Produced & Copyrighted on January 2008
Melody by Steve
Lyrics by Me
Arrangement by Steve
Performers: Me(vocal), Ken(vocal), Steve(backup vocal), Winston(bass), Ivy(drums), Gregory(guitar) & Chien Wen(keyboard)

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Started part time work, yet again.
same bosses, different environment, different experience.
Working part time always makes me know that,
my parents are the greatest.

They are working to provide for me, my sister, my brother, and my grandmother.
All the hardwork they put in,
all the efforts they put in,
all the pains they go through.
No complains, and at the end of the day,
when they came home,
i always see them smiling at us.

What i'm going through is only a "part-time",
what they been going through, is "full-time".
For this "part-time" period, i can already feel everything,
the tiredness, strain, efforts, everything.

yet they been going through for "full time",
with no complaints, just for the family.

What i can do now, is to lessen their worries,
give less nonsense,
and give more care and understanding to them.

Love you both ;)

anyway, this new working environment,
the people seems to be less "active" as compare to the last environment i'm working at.
Probably because there are no windows.

But there's this lady,
She offered me a sweet that helps sore throat when she heard me coughing,
as i'm doing telemarketing for now, she is real nice to do that.

Enough about work,
i guess everyone's having their exams now,
work hard! just a few days left =D

next week will be SCC ANNUAL CAMP!
man, i'm looking forward to it!
SCC is always a great place for me,
great passion for music,
great place filled with wonderful and fun people,
although i'm tied down with quite alot of resposbilities,
but well, this doesn't stop me from enjoying every bits and pieces of the moments there!
;)

AND!
i haven't post up my 2 songs from last MP )=
ahhhhhhhh.
i need a video convertor!!!!!!!!
i can't find one.
i need to try hard.

Actually, looking back now,
i lost lots of things, friends, and even important r/s.
But well, Memories are quite a powerful and wonderful thing.
Although some of them are filled with sadness,
but well, its what makes them special!
All theses mermories,
reminds me to not repeat any mistakes i make,
and cherish what i have now.

I'm still on my journey of discovering and learning,
are you?

All the unspoken words,
all the misleading actions,
all the assuming,
leads to one and only thing,
miscommunication.

I hate this,
looks like i still got a long way to learn.

How much more understanding can i give?
How much more reflections can i think?
How much more nonsense can i take?
How much more, how much more can i come up and solve?

Never even say you know what i'm going through,
none will i say i understand what you are going through.

End of the day,
what do you feel you have done?
what do you think you have achieve?
Looking back at what i have done,
hearing all the words others say,
i feel i done nothing,
all efforts and work,
worthless like dirt.

I do not wanna explain to anyone,
if this is seen as emo or whatever *insert yourself,
you are just too shallow.

anyway,
i are sick now.
and i don't need a doctor,
i recover in time.
Coming monday, Viva @ 4pm.
Then its holiday.

One last thing,
DON'T PRETEND YOU KNOW ME,
DON'T SPEAK LIKE YOU KNOW ME.

Project report writing is done,
i spent like $100 on printing and binding.
I smell chao ta in my pocket, or rather my parents'.
Up next is project submission on Friday 5pm,
Viva on 27 July, and.......
Holidays.
I guess the first thing i wanna do when holidays are in,
is to stay home, lie on bed the whole day and sort out every single thing in my life.

I guess I'm having a race against time and thoughts that i should have 5 years ago.
Time to end the race and turn it into actions.

How understanding can someone be,
when everyone else is not giving that person any understanding?
All they do is, when they are happy, they smile at you, giving you their best shot,
but when they are not, they give you shit.
This is life, learn and move on.

This very dream,
how i hope its real.
I even remember slapping myself in the dream to make sure its real,
i felt the pain of the slap.
i felt the sweetness,
i felt the happiness,
but all to only, vanish.

Only upon waking up,
then i realize,
i can't take this anymore,
because i know,
on this very earth i'm on,
i can lie to anyone, but myself.

For some reason,
suppressing came in unknowingly.
But, there is really nothing i can do,
or maybe the current me, can't do anything at all.
Guess all i can do now is,
work hard, be focus.

Absolutely hate this helpless feeling,
tried so hard to do something about it,
only to realize i am not getting anywhere.
Or probably i just didn't tried hard at all.
I just can't take it anymore.

I guess life is make up of regrets after all.
But well, life is not all about this.

Stay Focus Gary.
Crash & Burn.

Thank you everyone for the concern.
And even those who offer to visit my granny.
She is doing fine now, just discharged from the hospital.
(=

Really a big thanks to all.
(=

Mr dear Ng Shi Bin Peter,
you are going in army tomorrow,
please have a safe trip.

Don't bully people inside ah!
Take care man!
See you in 9 weeks time!
=D

Don't you ever wonder,
at the end of the day,
when the crowd disperse,
who is the one standing there for you?
or is there anyone?
hmm...

thought it was a good idea to change my sleeping spot for once,
So i went sleeping @ the living room.
But, didn't expect that a loud "bang" would become my alarm.

I always thought i'm a heavy sleeper.
But within 3 seconds, i shot up and checked out what happen.
To my horror, my granny was lie-ing on the floor, not moving, and beside her is the marble chair.
Mind you, the marble chair is freaking heavy, which thus created the loud "bang" sound.

I went over to her only to find out the back of her head was covered with blood,
my hands were filled with her blood.
This is an terrible feeling, watching her, unconscious in my arms, with her blood on my hands and arms.
she only came to after awhile and she held onto me like she is going to give way any soon.
All i can do is, call the ambulance and my parents, and pray hard they come fast while my sister and i take turns to hold the towel in hope to stop the bleeding abit.

Granny is now @ the hospital, waiting for more details of her blood test results.
Please be very safe.
Very very safe.

Never once had i had contact with any of my relatives' blood before.
This is a damn terrible feeling,
till now i can still smell my granny's blood and her imagine of getting so hurt.
Heartache and worries are all i have now.
Tomorrow is coming very soon, granny please be safe.